Until it felt like it was no longer appropriate than that I put the thing down that I was carrying, or whatever it was. But when these things occurred, I would take them as my practice. So I wasn't intentionally hurting myself. But to see where can I find equanimity with a pain Where can I find non reactivity with a pain, just to feel it clearly recognize it's there, but, but not get reactive to it and not take it personally not have pity for myself or get angry at the situation around me just to feel the simplicity of the pain. And so I made it an exercise that did not to hurt myself. And after a while, it hurt little bit, though, carry this heavy object. For example, I remember having to carry heavy objects for long distance. One of the things that I did in my early years of Buddhist practice was that when I had an occasion to feel pain, like for example, I was, I was working on a farm at the Zen center, or different kinds of physical work that I have to do. And there's a number of ways you can kind of experiment with this depending how motivated you are How far you want to take some of these things. And this is a very powerful thing to do if you want to start becoming free in the midst of your experience. And I know about pleasantness and I know how to be present for to experiencing it without leaning into it and without chasing after it or something just allowing it to be there and feel it. And simplifying it to that level, free of the drama and the stories of all connected can be a given Avenue a doorway, into relaxing and opening up and finding our balance getting grounded in the situation that might be faster than trying to you know navigate the situation in order to, to feel that same things with things are very pleasant. I know how to be nonreactive, which is just unpleasant, it's intensely unpleasant. When things are unpleasant, I can just kind of open up and be still and quiet and just feel the unpleasantness. But to take a moment and recognize this is unpleasant. And, and to try to figure out what's going on and to understand the details and what you have to do. And you know, in this conversation at a party, for example, or something, I'd work at a meeting. So if you go into a social situation, that's very uncomfortable, people are arguing and, and all kinds of terrible things are happening. And so there's a whole range, but to reduce it to this very simple label are pleasant and unpleasant, or the literal poly is more like, happy and, and painful is, is Mexico and make things a lot simpler, and help us become free or more simply. Of course, pleasant can be a wide range of things from just a mild sense of comfort to intense ecstasy, the unpleasant can be again, mild discomfort, to extreme, you know, pain. And, and it's, it's simplistic because every experience can be, has these simple qualities to it. So the feeling tones are pleasant, unpleasant, or neither pleasant or unpleasant. And we're beginning to make a movement deeper and deeper into this inner life. So we're starting to get into something very personal, subjective. Because as the warmth, the it's our skin and is felt subjectively, the subjective nature of it is partly this interaction with our mentality or history or associations, our responses to it, and the person next to us has a whole other set of those. And it might be a little bit different than the person next to us. And so we would begin by going at the physical level at, like at this skin level, with feeling tone, we're going a little bit deeper inside, into what's more subjective, it's, it's something that only we experience mean, if somebody else might experience the warmth that is standing next to us, but only we the, you know, have our own experience of that subjective experience of, of the warmth. And so it's considered to be more subjective. But there is some degree of it is also our, how we receive it, how we meet it. And so it isn't just pleasant in and of itself. But the feeling is a little bit deeper inside, because it's the interaction of this sensation, a little bit with our response to read our evaluation or perception of it. Maybe you can say on the surface of the skin, just for the sake of the thought exercise. And it's the feeling tone has to do with this subjective experience, that the nature of our experience, so that when we feel something physical, say we feel the warmth of the sun, that certainly their their senses are activated. Vedanā (3 of 5) Inner Pleasure with Non-reactivity 4:58PM Speakers: Gil Fronsdal Keywords: unpleasant feel pleasant cold showers deeper senses stimulated discover non reactivity connected relax unpleasantness subjective experience nonreactive reactive experience reactivity situation warmth subjective Continuing on this series, talking about the Verdana, the Pali word for feeling or feeling tone.
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